I deleted my Facebook account...and a few other things as well with that click of a button. It is a difficult decision to literally lay everything at the feet of Christ, your present, past and future, all your hopes, dreams, desires, passions and your love but that is what we are called to do...it is what we MUST do if we are to pursue a more passionate, intimate relationship with God. It is not something we can fake...it is also, I am finding not something that we can ease into as we feel more ready or prepared. No, this choice is one that must be made with eyes wide open, and a heart unwavering. It is an all or nothing decision that sets off a process of more such decisions, but it must have a beginning.
I love heights, perhaps because deep down inside I am truly fightened of them. But there is no other feeling that I love more than when you have gathered your courage to make a flying leap off a great height into a pile of snow, or water or just hitting the ground. That woosh as you leave the safety of the ground behind and take to the freedom of being suspended momentarily in midair always takes my breath away, leaving me giddy as I finally make contact with the ground below. It is completely terrifying and absolutely thrilling at the same time!
That first step of abandoning this world and mediocre Christianity is like that first jump off of a great height. Absolutely terrifying because of everything you can and will loose. And absolutely thrilling because you find yourself suspended in the hands of God, FREE.
You will return to earth, but on a higher plateu then before, and then it begins again, running to the edge, defeating the little sins in your life, speaking and acting out against the sin in the world, fighting and overcoming until there is only one more thing for you to overcome, another leap, not blind in any sense, but based on what you know to be true that He will catch you and carry you to the next height.
The adventure begins...safe return? Doubtful, I fully expect to die a martyr for my Lord, but advenuture? Promised!
His grace is sufficient for me, for in my weakness his strength is made perfect.
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